Missing GOD

I am not an atheist…..you can say I am a real firm believer in god,still I have some questions in mind, which needs more of logic than examples from religious literature,I am not here to challenge the existence of god,but to check if everything done in the name of god is really like what I think.
Whenever I assume god to create a world and sending lives in it….I use to ponder always.
If god is the only to grant and run lives in living beings ,then everyone must be connected with him, as there is only god who grants life, thus no one can live in the world without being blessed with his conscience.
But I see a lot of people, who does heinous crimes (hyena is also made by god in this way) disaffect several blessed with so called ‘good souls’.
Was there any compulsion in front of him to make cruel souls,or is he like a driver who only knows how to start a bike and then puts in on auto-pilot mode?
If not, then why doesn’t he governs the life of all after they tend to go in the direction of sins…..does he willingly want them to fall in the wrong way,or is he incapable of stopping them,……….If no,then why is he not bothered about it, or if yes, then Why he is considered omnipresent and most powerful,even more than what human can even think of?
When he made great minds to explore happiness for mankind,why does he allows the culprits to stay here to obstruct them from living in peace.
He certainly,if he does exist really, has not sent lives on earth to praise the lord every time, he would have loved to see people living happily and peacefully,to create a good model on earth. He must have not been happier after one devotes all their life only in praising the lord, living in religious places and living on what they get in the name of god.
If It is in the least of his desires, he would not have sent you on the earth to consume the earthly foods to praise him, he must had kept numbers of lives with him at his own place, If he has not allowed you to stay with him in the heaven and sent you on the earth, you must do your duties other than devoting this life to god against his will, He had rather sent you here to help in exploring new ideas……The god is god….you are not going to invent a more durable god or like this….If there is god, he will remain the god forever, he doesn’t need your garnishing.
Yes, but you get rewards for your devotion to god, you create a world of fear about him,some justifies it of being love too in their way,which helps you to live your life happily without ever being worried about the crops.Just think of those who are left deserted when weather decides the fates.
The ultimate reason behind our lives (even if God exists or not) is that we have to gain knowledge, promote it, help someone in need, to have a family, to promote lives rather than to sit on a mount of money(which injects the proud quotient replacing pride)…or to leave every duty in search of God.
Why don’t you understand If God really exists somewhere, he doesn’t want you to be glued with him,that’s why he sent you here on earth….but here too you are not obeying him.Do you feel you are making him happy to worship him for your life….
I know there are some references of god’s presence in the world, I am surely not going to challenge their validity. But I know it too that in no instance god ordered or wish the living souls to leave everything behind,and devote your life to pray for him.
I have read of Buddha,hindu mythologies,some of christian’s works,and have listened the audio version of quraan. Neglecting a specific religion’s view only is not the proper way to be secular.
I am not a recognized and noted thinker of the world, and maybe I can be taken lightly,But I say firmly here if there is any great scholar of religions,who can challenge me on my view here, are welcome to have a word here.
I too follow spirituality in my live and I have learned the very first lesson in my life, not to hate anyone, it is only the state of mind which is solely responsible for the actions.
Recently I have read a report published in “Fiji Sun” newspaper which reads ‘ in a jail,prisoners are being offered a short course on Christianity,in order to lead them to a peaceful life afterwards,and thus giving them a hope for life…..’the matter is that in real means its good to see it as a media of peace,in fact I think they should have been given option to choose from other religions too,but then again,the gods must had not separated parts to feed different religions too.In this case it is soothing to see smiles on dying faces.
The message of every religion and motto over God’s immense capacities is only to maintain harmony all over the world,but we get ready to fight and die for matters related to partitioned Gods….I ask,why?